Trust is hard. Especially for those of us who are better at doing things ourselves. While I am eternally grateful for the strong work ethic and independent spirit that is bred in my family, it gets in the way of trust. I am in church ministry, I work with the teenagers, the youth. Though I am an intern now, at the end of my internship I will hopefully have a position doing the same thing (but for more than a year and hopefully for a few more dollars per year). My job and my field require much trust (in unique ways, but not entirely unlike most other professions). Trust is also necessary in relationships. Whether that be professional, familial, or personal.
Trust has been a big thing in my life lately. There is so much that the Lord is leading me to specifically trust him for, including my job, finding a job next year, family, finances, personal theology, friends. My finances have been huge as I am on my own for the first time and figuring out how to survive, plan ahead, tithe, give generously, and have some leisure cash all at the same time. And there’s Rachel, my lovely girlfriend, and money spent with her and traveling to see her (she’s in Denver and I live just south of the Colorado-Wyoming border). Of course there is quite a bit to trust God on there too which involves no money.
But the point of all this is built on my evolving understanding of what trust is. Trust is usually dynamic, though not always (see the story of George Muller). By this I mean that it is not generally done apart from progressive action. Trust is not passive. The trust God is leading me into mostly requires action on my behalf. Trust in finance requires budgeting and prudent spending. Trust with Rachel requires much prayer and open communication with her and also concerning her with certain trusted mentors.Trust in my job requires that I do my best while continually going before God in prayer. Trust in a job search requires networking, prayer, applications and resumes well written, interviews well prepared for, etc.
You might notice a common thread of prayer. You may think that I am some sort of crazy prayer warrior or super-Christian who spends all my time on my knees. Quite the opposite really. I believe strongly in the power of prayer. I don’t know how to fit all that I think to be true into a nice, neat systematic theology, but I know that one of the best methods for me to be able to trust in God is to talk with him. That means I listen as well as talk! My other means are to be reading scripture every day and to seek council from godly mentors and friends.
So even as I endeavor and struggle to place my trust into the hands of the sovereign Godhead, I need to be about my disciplines to foster that trust. May you as well, and even better than I am.
Grace and Peace in our Lord and savior, Christ Jesus.